Evening people... Went to Queensway just now to look for shoes. Ended up buying a shirt... It cost $45. After that we took a bus down to Orchard. Headed to Far East Plaza. I got quite pissed off cos while I was crossing one of the roads, this lady in a BMW knocked me when she clearly saw me walking across the zebra crossing. I copied down her license plate number. But I don't think I'll do anything... Met up with Fad and the 4 of us went to Canadian Pizza for dinner... It was my treat! 2 for 1!!! Nurul and Fad had 3 slices each. Matt had 4. So I had to eat 6 slices... I hope I get fat!!

Had a lot of time to think today... I messaged her to ask if she knew how to get to queensway... She didn't reply. She probably has a reason. I'm not gonna bother thinking about what it is. I thought about the both of them. If I were in him, I wouldn't have done what he did. I would feel that it would spoil my chances... But then again, it wasn't totally his fault. She probably encouraged it? Why am I thinking about this again? Isn't it funny how these thoughts repeat themselves? One of these days, I'm gonna look back at my blog and laugh at myself... I'm gonna wonder why I was so foolish. One of these days...

Oon says not to base my life on emotions and feelings unless they are inline with the Word of God... But I can't help the way I feel. Its how God made me. Thats why I have this blog... This is how I get rid of my emotions. I throw them onto the 'paper'. Sometimes its difficult to tell the difference between promptings from the spirit and ideas from my mind. Gotta go off soon... My dad is making noise.

Dear God... Sorry to trouble you with the same topic again. I'm only human you see... My feelings still play a big part in my life... I know what your truths are. I know... but I don't feel them... Help me to cling to you even when things don't feel right. Help me to give this aspect of my life totally to you. You know I'm afraid to let go totally. You know I've been trying... Take care of her as well. Protect her from any temptation or harm. Guide her in the way you want her to go. I pray that she grows in you, whether we're meant to be together or not. Amen.